blackfrancine: (BtVS: Spuffy has doorsex)
 Okay, about 3 minutes ago I was driving home from work, and I was struck out of nowhere with the thought that Buffy and Spike were seeking to destroy themselves with their love/attraction to each other.  

This is touched on in FFL--"You're a little bit in love with Death... and one of these days, I'm gonna slip in there."  And then, of course, he does.  He represents peace and death and completion for Buffy, and on a really bad day for her ("You came back wrong")--he slips in there, and gets her to admit that she does desire death. 
But that's all about Buffy's death wish. WHAT OF SPIKE'S DEATH WISH, HUH?  It's dismissed in Smashed that he, Slayer of Slayers, is in love with the girl who represents death for him--"Vampire, remember? I'm supposed to be treading on the dark side.  What's your excuse?" --and sort of played off as incompetence or softness on his part--"All you can do is follow me around making moon eyes."  But it's so much more than that.  He's in love with his own destruction AT LEAST as much as Buffy is with hers. As William, he willingly walked right into his death, then as William the Bloody, he asked Angelus if he didn't ever want to fight a fight he didn't know he could win. He WANTED the uncertainty--he wanted the chance--just the chance--to die. And as Spike, of course--of course--he loves the one girl in all the world who can destroy him.  And he feeds off it.  He knows he's crawling after her, seeking his own bit of oblivion, his own demolition. She's the sun and he just wants to bask in her--flames and vampire dust be damned. The danger, the certainty that she'll destroy him (either that or he'll destroy her) is always there--and it only eggs him on.  He wants his death so bad that he can taste it.  And, the poet in him wants his death to come from love.  From loving.  

Funny that, in SR, when he realizes that he did in fact hurt Buffy, as he was sure he'd never really do--funny that he goes and seeks his soul.  He finds a way to not hurt her.  He finds a way to make sure that it's his death, his destruction--not hers--that will come from it all.  He destroys himself because he wants to, and also because he doesn't want to destroy her. <3

Anyway.  Beautiful symmetry those two have.  

Second thing.  I got Final Cut Express today!  I'm so excited and terrified.  And I'm having a bizarre flood of vid-inspiration (vidspiration?) all circling around They Might Be Giants songs.  Weird, huh?  Anyway.  If anyone knows of some good tutorial sites especially for Final Cut, I would be eternally grateful.   
blackfrancine: (BtVS: Buffy's hat has a cow)
Good gravy, it's been quiet around here lately.  I'm at work right now, and I'm so bored that I'm trying to think of something--anything--to post about. 

So, I guess I'll just yak about my rewatching thoughts, even though they're not really cohesive at all.  But, seriously, how often are any of my thoughts cohesive?  So, I suppose that shouldn't stop me. 

AtS thoughts )
Buffy, AYW thoughts )
blackfrancine: (BtVS: Buffy--Joan is a superhero)
I don't actually even know about that.  I haven't really watched enough BSG to know if I'm a cylon or not (But soon!  Soon I will know!). 
Anyway.  I watch TV  and then I have thoughts.  And sometimes I write the thoughts down here.   That's how this goes.  
blackfrancine: (BtVS: The trio loves free porn)
 So, I’m still slowly rewatching BtVS and AtS, and right now I’m at the beginning of seasons 5 and 2. Before I get too much further along, I wanted to address a couple of things. Primarily, Riley.

I have feelings about sex scenes )
blackfrancine: (BtVS: Spuffy Smile Something Blue)
Let's talk about some serious bidness, folks. Like I mentioned, I've been rewatching BtVS and I just started AtS as well.  And I have feelings aplenty. 

Here's my Buffy/Angel rewatch thoughts, in no particular order:

1. SMG is the most adorable human being in the history of the universe.  

2.  Cave Buffy is the most adorable iteration of adorable SMG in the universe. 

3. "Gutterface" is my new favorite saying. 
blackfrancine: (BtVS: Andrew likes Timothy Dalton)
Okey dokey.  So, without realizing it, I've embarked on my third rewatch (or, almost--I skipped most of S1).  We'll see how far I get--but for now, let's assume my energy and attention span are eternal--vast as the ocean blue--and that I'm gonna get all the way through.  

Right now I'm about halfway through season 3.  And it's going swimmingly: I have both thoughts and feelings, which maybe I'll share if I can think of them, but right now I'm all tapped out.  But, I was thinking that I'd throw in AtS when I get S4--because I've always sort of wanted to watch the shows in tandem to see what new perspective it gives things.  

So that's what this post is about--what order should I watch the episodes in if I'm folding the series together?  Is it as simple as one Angel, one Buffy? Or is it one Buffy, one Angel?  A while back I found a really good blog entry that gave a slightly more specific order, so that crossover episodes lined up better, but I can't find it now.  

Does anyone have any thoughts on this very important matter?  
blackfrancine: (BtVS: Buffy gets drunk with local vampir)
I think that it sort of draws a parallel with Ted/his wives and Angel/Darla-Buffy.  

There's clearly a parallel between Angel and Ted in general--they both are lurking in Buffy's room, looking at her stuff when she sneaks in through the window; they're both the monstrous, older (neither of whom seem nearly as old as they are) boyfriend.  And Angel sort of makes a case for Ted--encouraging Buffy to give him a chance despite her misgivings, her distrust of Ted's perfection.  And there's a weird boyfriend/daddy conflation going on--where Ted refers to himself as "daddy" to Joyce, treats Buffy like a father would immediately after meeting her, but Angel is similarly counseling not as a friend or boyfriend, but as an elder with wisdom--as a parent.  

But, when Ted's true nature and past relationships are revealed, they bare an eerie resemblance to Angel's:  The main relationship of Angel's life was, of course, Darla.  But, like Ted's wife, Darla left Angel--rejected him.  And he, in turn, destroyed her.  But then, like Ted, he pursued a woman who fit Darla's bill to a T--petite, blond, saucy. Angel recreates his mate with Buffy, then, just as he did with Darla, he destroys her.  Or tries to.   

Xander perhaps says it best:

So, I'm Ted, the sickly loser. I'm dying and my wife dumps me.
I build a better Ted. He brings her back, holds her hostage in his
bunker'o'love until she dies. And then he keeps bringing her back, over
and over. Now, now that's creepy on a level I hardly knew existed.
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Everybody go do this! It's a fic-a-thon hosted by the lovely and talented [ profile] eilowyn to send a little love in Dawn's direction.

blackfrancine: (BtVS: Buffy's Creepy)
Jeesh, y'all.  Thirty days is really a whole lotta days.  This meme just goes on and on.  It's like Celine Dion's heart.  

And before I start, can I just say how simultaneously excited and disappointed I was with the Veronica Mars's performance in FMM.  I totally didn't think she'd get that far.  She took out Kurt Hummel, y'all.  He's a juggernaut.  But nothing my girl couldn't handle.  And then... only to lose such a hard-fought race.  So sad.  Vote Troy.  Because life has no meaning for me now that Veronica and Buffy are out.  Troy is my last shining light of hope.  

Okay.  Three more days.
Day 26: Something in canon that I'd change )Day 27: Something that I'd add to canon )Day 28: Hottest scene )
blackfrancine: (BtVS: Ben Is Glory?)
I don't know if I've mentioned this about myself, but I'm impetuous.  To a fault.  Maybe impetuousness is always considered a fault? Well, mine is like a super fault, then.  The San Andreas fault. 

I think I must've fallen and hit my head or something (but I don't remember it). Because I bought a new laptop. It's shiny and new.  

Another sign that I've lost my mind or suffered some sort of head trauma: I bought a paid LJ membership.  And an icon package.  Now, typically, I wouldn't say that's an indication of my oncoming dementia, but if you consider that I have icons that I never use even out of my "free package" selection of 15, it seems a little irrational to buy more, doesn't it?  Somehow, I managed to convince myself that it was the limited scope of the 15 icons that was preventing me from using them to their best effect.  

And last.  I bought ALL of the Buffy Season 8 comics on amazon yesterday.  So, they'll be here soon.  I'm excited. But, the problem is that I haven't yet returned the wrong comics that I bought (I mistakenly bought the Omnibus).  I was supposed to return those first.  But I didn't. Because I'm the least responsible person in the world.  

And frankly, I'm seriously considering buying some clothes from ModCloth.  So.  I think I'm on a shopping jag.  

Anyway! Enough about my foolhardy spending habits. Let's humor my desire to stick to this imaginary schedule, and talk about memes and stuff. 
Day 10: Something I liked that fandom didn't )

Day 11: Somthing I hate that fandom loves )
Day 12: Least favorite season )
blackfrancine: (Andrew Funnel Cake)
So, after having been shockingly on schedule with this meme for 8 days, I missed yesterday.  But I have a good excuse!  I. Signed up. For Seasonal Spuffy.  That's right.  And I spent the better part of last night attempting to write something!  I think it probably sucks!  But still.  I have plenty of time to try and make it not suck. 

Anyhoo! Have a surprisingly long stream-of-consciousness essay on my favorite villain(s)!

They wrapped evil around them like a large, evil Mexican serape )
blackfrancine: (Andrew Funnel Cake)
So, in a very unfortunate turn of events, this morning, I spilled a soda on my laptop.  Expanded tale of woe )

It was actually kind of hard to decide on a least favorite couple.  It turns out I don't exactly hate any couples.  But I settled on this one...
I don't like any of that stuff. Except theā€”the fighting evil part. Even then, I prefer a nice foot massage )
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There's not a lot to say about this episode because... well, because I don't like it.

Pull them little strings and I'll sing you a song, I'm your puppet  )
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Day 6 is my favorite couple, and I’m not even going to play the fake-you-out game where I pretend like my favorite pairing is Xander/Cordelia or Willow/Kennedy, because we all know what I’m going to pick.

So brace yourself, f-list and assorted other readers. Because you’re about to be punched in the face with the full force of my shipping fury.

AHOY! The ship is settin' sail, mateys! )
blackfrancine: (Joan is a superhero)
So, I don't know if anyone noticed--if you did, you are magnanimous in nature for not correcting me-- I posted two "Day 3's."  I'm not surprised that I had a counting!fail.  But, really, I thought I would've broken ten with no mistakes.  Alas.

But, I'm all set straight and cardinally numbered.  And rarin' to do Day 5.   Which! Is super apropos for [ profile] gabrielleabelle 's Why So Icy? poll!  

My favorite season?  Easy.  

I will cut a bitch... (Get it? LJ cut? Heh. I suck.) )
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This was another difficult choice. I kept thinking of an episode that I love—and then I’d start to write up an explanation of why it’s the GREATEST EPISODE EVAR, and then suddenly I’d remember another episode. And I was like, D’oh. I think I like that episode more than the other one.

Yeah… repeat these steps about four times, and you have an idea of the evolution of this post.

So, I made a little list of the runners up, because I think they deserve some recognition as well.

You were fighting as a soldier on their side )
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Day three is supposed to be on my least favorite character. And this was a tough one. A little while ago, it probably would’ve been Xander. Because of his mansplaining in Into the Woods and slut shaming in… well, too many episodes to count, really. But. I’ve sort of had a Come to Jesus moment with Xander (in this scenario, Xander is not Jesus. I don’t know who is—but it isn’t Xander). I’m still not crazy about him, but my seething hatred has dissipated.

Willow was another contender—mainly for her baby talk. Snuggly wuggly? Smoochies? Ugh. I can’t stand baby talk. Not to mention the “Baby” talk with Tara—them calling each other “Baby” and “Sweetie” all the time. Gag me. But that hardly seems like grounds to award her the Least Favorite Character title.

I realize that everyone is going to think that I’m a total freak and that no one in the entire world feels the way I do about this character, but whatever. I’m a lone wolf. A renegade. I follow the beat of my own drum and all that.

So, without further ado, the Least Favorite Character title goes to…
Can't fight the seether )
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No! I'm kidding; there'll be no singing.  I kept trying to work the lyrics for "Kiss Off" into here somewhere because it's been in my head all day. But I failed.  OR DID I?

They'll hurt me bad, they do it all the time )
blackfrancine: (Joan is a superhero)
Actually, no.  This isn't important.  But I'm jittery and bored and sleepless.  So, I'm posting this.  

Woo hoo! I just started watching the Vampire Diaries last week, and I'm almost caught up. My feelings about it can be summed up thusly: I ♥ Damon. And Jenna. And Caroline. And Alaric and Jeremy are A-OK too. Elena isn't too bad either. The end.

Well, psych. That's not really the end. I have one more thought--I love the Salvatore brothers' relationship. That's some compelling human drama. I mean, man am I predictable. Nothing reels me in like a good sibling story, I tell ya. 

In other news, I've been thinking about doing the 30 Days of Buffy meme for a little while now.  Hopefully, it'll be a way of getting myself to post more often. And also I get to talk about my ~feelings~, which is pretty much my favorite pastime.  

Heh. Not really. That was a joke. I don't like to talk about my real feelings (though it seems like I do it an awful lot lately)--but I do like to talk about my Buffy-related feelings.  So, I figured I'd go ahead and kick it off right now with day one, my favorite female character...

All the ladies in the house, I'm callin' out to ya )

Also-- I hate the world right now.  I just figured out that after hemming and hawing over Season 8, that I bought the wrong damn thing.  And I'm gonna have to take it back to the bookstore (and I only bought it from the bookstore because I had a gift card)--and they always give you the side-eye when you return books.  Which, I get. I'd be giving side-eye if I were them.  But this is totally legit! I haven't read them.  And they were expensive.  So, that's not gonna be fun.  Boo-urns.  
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So, I've been a little bored lately. And this has forced me to entertain myself--so (inspired by something negative I saw on Tumblr), I started thinking about how much I love Buffy, the character. Then, out of further boredom, I decided to make an art project or two. It truly is shocking the things that boredom will drive me to.

Please to be reading my love letter to my fictional BFF, Buffy.

Let me count the ways... )

ETA: I don't know why my picspams are showing up so small.  I swear the original files aren't that size.  Oh well.  
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I should mention up front that I have no idea whether what I'm about to say is of any significance whatsoever.

But, in a conversation with [ profile] eleusis_walks , he mentioned the poet Yeats in regards to Angel season 5. That's what planted this seed--so I just thought I'd give him credit (or blame--whatevs).

The poem Second Coming is about... well, it's about a lot of things. But in its most literal reading, it's about the destruction of one world and the creation of another. The new world is represented by a sphinx/lion figure.

It struck me as more than a little coincidental that, from what I hear, the new baby universe is a little lion thingy in the comics. 

And also, it should be mentioned that Yeats is a bit of nut--and he was all into the idea of different dimensions and apocalypses and what have you. So, very much Buffy-compliant.

Just throwin' that out there in case it matters to anyone. Oh, and here's a copy of the poem:


Turning and turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity.

Surely some revelation is at hand;
Surely the Second Coming is at hand.
The Second Coming! Hardly are those words out
When a vast image out of Spiritus Mundi
Troubles my sight: a waste of desert sand;
A shape with lion body and the head of a man,
A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun,
Is moving its slow thighs, while all about it
Wind shadows of the indignant desert birds.
The darkness drops again but now I know
That twenty centuries of stony sleep
Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle,
And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,
Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?
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Woot! The boyfriend is out of town for the weekend, so guess what that means… It means I get to be totally hedonistic—and do whatever I want and no one will distract me with their questions, like “Hey, are you hungry, should we go get lunch?” or “Have you seen this awesome clip of a corgi jumping into a lake in slow mo?” Just me and AtS and other fannish Internetting things for a whole 2 days. Well, that and I’m gonna have to paint the base boards in the living room—-BUT! I can put Angel on while I paint. I am a deluxe multi-tasker!

But first, before I throw myself headlong into my weekend of hedonism and isolation, I have to share with you the Spuffy revelation that was just… uh… revealed to me. I was reading some older entries in [ profile] molly_may ’s journal today while I was at work (and should have been working--not so much a multi-tasker at the office). And a few months ago she posted this most excellent poll with bonus picspams!

Click for Visual Aids and Epiphanies  )


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