blackfrancine: (BtVS: Spuffy has doorsex)
 Okay, about 3 minutes ago I was driving home from work, and I was struck out of nowhere with the thought that Buffy and Spike were seeking to destroy themselves with their love/attraction to each other.  

This is touched on in FFL--"You're a little bit in love with Death... and one of these days, I'm gonna slip in there."  And then, of course, he does.  He represents peace and death and completion for Buffy, and on a really bad day for her ("You came back wrong")--he slips in there, and gets her to admit that she does desire death. 
 
But that's all about Buffy's death wish. WHAT OF SPIKE'S DEATH WISH, HUH?  It's dismissed in Smashed that he, Slayer of Slayers, is in love with the girl who represents death for him--"Vampire, remember? I'm supposed to be treading on the dark side.  What's your excuse?" --and sort of played off as incompetence or softness on his part--"All you can do is follow me around making moon eyes."  But it's so much more than that.  He's in love with his own destruction AT LEAST as much as Buffy is with hers. As William, he willingly walked right into his death, then as William the Bloody, he asked Angelus if he didn't ever want to fight a fight he didn't know he could win. He WANTED the uncertainty--he wanted the chance--just the chance--to die. And as Spike, of course--of course--he loves the one girl in all the world who can destroy him.  And he feeds off it.  He knows he's crawling after her, seeking his own bit of oblivion, his own demolition. She's the sun and he just wants to bask in her--flames and vampire dust be damned. The danger, the certainty that she'll destroy him (either that or he'll destroy her) is always there--and it only eggs him on.  He wants his death so bad that he can taste it.  And, the poet in him wants his death to come from love.  From loving.  

Funny that, in SR, when he realizes that he did in fact hurt Buffy, as he was sure he'd never really do--funny that he goes and seeks his soul.  He finds a way to not hurt her.  He finds a way to make sure that it's his death, his destruction--not hers--that will come from it all.  He destroys himself because he wants to, and also because he doesn't want to destroy her. <3

Anyway.  Beautiful symmetry those two have.  

Second thing.  I got Final Cut Express today!  I'm so excited and terrified.  And I'm having a bizarre flood of vid-inspiration (vidspiration?) all circling around They Might Be Giants songs.  Weird, huh?  Anyway.  If anyone knows of some good tutorial sites especially for Final Cut, I would be eternally grateful.   
blackfrancine: (BtVS: Buffy's Creepy)
Jeesh, y'all.  Thirty days is really a whole lotta days.  This meme just goes on and on.  It's like Celine Dion's heart.  

And before I start, can I just say how simultaneously excited and disappointed I was with the Veronica Mars's performance in FMM.  I totally didn't think she'd get that far.  She took out Kurt Hummel, y'all.  He's a juggernaut.  But nothing my girl couldn't handle.  And then... only to lose such a hard-fought race.  So sad.  Vote Troy.  Because life has no meaning for me now that Veronica and Buffy are out.  Troy is my last shining light of hope.  

Okay.  Three more days.
Day 26: Something in canon that I'd change )Day 27: Something that I'd add to canon )Day 28: Hottest scene )
blackfrancine: (BtVS: Timothy Dalton vs. Sean Connery)

Okay, you guys.  Here we go!  Recommendation day is here at last!  My main way of participating in fandom has been to consume the amazing work created by others more talented than myself.  So, I'm really excited to have an excuse to talk about some of my  favorite works and maybe introduce some of y'all to one or two new fics or vids.

But there's a lot here.  Especially in the vid section, as you can see.  So, you might want to stretch and get some water--I don't want anyone pulling a muscle or getting dehydrated trying to marathon all the awesome that's about to come flying at your head.  

FYI--This post is going be my html masterpiece if even half of the embeds and links work.  It took me all day.

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens )
blackfrancine: (BtVS: Spike--Randy's a superhero)
So, no!  I didn't give up on the 30 Days of Buffy meme!  I finally got my software all sorted out and my computer firing on all cylinders. And I've spent the last 3 days working on the picspam that is hiding below the cut. Oooh. Suspenseful.  

Now, my Photoshopping skills are what you might generously call rudimentary. But this, you guys, is my Mona Lisa. My Sistine Chapel. My... Still Life with Woodpecker?

Anyway. It came out almost how I wanted it to. So, I'm pleased.  So without further ado, I give you Day 13: My favorite character arc.  



Day 13: Favorite Character Arc )
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Day 6 is my favorite couple, and I’m not even going to play the fake-you-out game where I pretend like my favorite pairing is Xander/Cordelia or Willow/Kennedy, because we all know what I’m going to pick.

So brace yourself, f-list and assorted other readers. Because you’re about to be punched in the face with the full force of my shipping fury.


AHOY! The ship is settin' sail, mateys! )
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This was another difficult choice. I kept thinking of an episode that I love—and then I’d start to write up an explanation of why it’s the GREATEST EPISODE EVAR, and then suddenly I’d remember another episode. And I was like, D’oh. I think I like that episode more than the other one.

Yeah… repeat these steps about four times, and you have an idea of the evolution of this post.

So, I made a little list of the runners up, because I think they deserve some recognition as well.

You were fighting as a soldier on their side )
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No! I'm kidding; there'll be no singing.  I kept trying to work the lyrics for "Kiss Off" into here somewhere because it's been in my head all day. But I failed.  OR DID I?

They'll hurt me bad, they do it all the time )
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Woot! The boyfriend is out of town for the weekend, so guess what that means… It means I get to be totally hedonistic—and do whatever I want and no one will distract me with their questions, like “Hey, are you hungry, should we go get lunch?” or “Have you seen this awesome clip of a corgi jumping into a lake in slow mo?” Just me and AtS and other fannish Internetting things for a whole 2 days. Well, that and I’m gonna have to paint the base boards in the living room—-BUT! I can put Angel on while I paint. I am a deluxe multi-tasker!

But first, before I throw myself headlong into my weekend of hedonism and isolation, I have to share with you the Spuffy revelation that was just… uh… revealed to me. I was reading some older entries in [livejournal.com profile] molly_may ’s journal today while I was at work (and should have been working--not so much a multi-tasker at the office). And a few months ago she posted this most excellent poll with bonus picspams!

Click for Visual Aids and Epiphanies  )

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