Is it difficult or time consuming?

Good gravy, it's been quiet around here lately.  I'm at work right now, and I'm so bored that I'm trying to think of something--anything--to post about. 

So, I guess I'll just yak about my rewatching thoughts, even though they're not really cohesive at all.  But, seriously, how often are any of my thoughts cohesive?  So, I suppose that shouldn't stop me. 

( AtS thoughts )
( Buffy, AYW thoughts )

Jeesh, y'all.  Thirty days is really a whole lotta days.  This meme just goes on and on.  It's like Celine Dion's heart.  

And before I start, can I just say how simultaneously excited and disappointed I was with the Veronica Mars's performance in FMM.  I totally didn't think she'd get that far.  She took out Kurt Hummel, y'all.  He's a juggernaut.  But nothing my girl couldn't handle.  And then... only to lose such a hard-fought race.  So sad.  Vote Troy.  Because life has no meaning for me now that Veronica and Buffy are out.  Troy is my last shining light of hope.  

Okay.  Three more days.
( Day 26: Something in canon that I'd change )( Day 27: Something that I'd add to canon )( Day 28: Hottest scene )

 Okay.  So.  Sometimes I get to a really mature, intellectual place about Spike & Buffy--and even when I'm in that place, I'm full of flailing and squishy feelings.  But I get all excited over the ~literary-ness of it all.  The symbolism, the motifs, the mirrors, the coherence of the characterization.  

Right now, I'm not in that place. I'm in a place where all my feelings are gone and they have been replaced with SPUFFY. And not in a good way. Like in a painful, terrified way.  I was just watching some vids.  And all I can say is that I know now why I didn't read the comics for so long--why I kept thinking about reading them and then putting it off:  Because I think I will literally die if something really bad happens to this ship.  I just watched Winter Song by darlapr0duction , which I had downloaded! and feel really lucky, since it's now been removed from public space.  And then I watched my new favorite (the vid isn't new, it's just new to being my favorite) by nvrbnkisst , Diappearing World.




My gosh. I just love the sense of partnership and equality in that vid.

And then there's Halo by Darla Productions:




(This is really 3 vids all squished together. The first one is Halo.)


But. I think I'm going to shatter, you guys. I've also been watching other "Spuffy" vids--but they're a little more grim than these. They obviously think the relationship wasn't going to work. And I think they blame Buffy. They don't think she loved him. And for some reason, it's killing me.

Normally, I think I can be a mature consumer of media and accept what's given to me. Normally, I really like Chosen. But right now I want to break a lamp. Because I just want a fucking happy ending. I NEED a happy ending. I feel like something inside of me is going to split open if they don't get a happy ending. And--yes--I know. I know. Chosen IS a happy ending. Like I said, I normally feel that way. But right now, I just need Chosen without the death and with an exuberant makeout session.

I have no idea what my deal is tonight.

Day 6 is my favorite couple, and I’m not even going to play the fake-you-out game where I pretend like my favorite pairing is Xander/Cordelia or Willow/Kennedy, because we all know what I’m going to pick.

So brace yourself, f-list and assorted other readers. Because you’re about to be punched in the face with the full force of my shipping fury.


( AHOY! The ship is settin' sail, mateys! )

So, lately I maybe have been rewatching Veronica Mars for, like, the 4th time. And, as is now my way when my obsessiveness reaches a certain fever pitch, I’ve gone looking for good VMars fic. And I have to say a few things.

First, I’ve been so spoiled by this little corner of fandom. Really and truly. Spoiled rotten. We’re so organized. There are so many archives! And awards! And people with kick ass indexed journals! And to some extent I guess all that’s to be expected. VMars ran for a much shorter time, had a much smaller following, and it’s not fantasy/sci-fi, so I think that it probably attracts fewer hardcore fans. And the result is that there’s much, much less to choose from fanfic-wise than in Buffy fandom. So, of course there’s less good-quality writing out there. And… I get that. I do. But, what I find a little troubling is the proportion of fics that make Logan into a big ol’ woobie while painting Veronica as a soul-sucking bitch. Because I just cannot read such juvenilely developed characters as that. I can’t do it.

Um.  Spoilers through the end of the series under the cut. 

( Cut because I just can't shut up )

Woot! The boyfriend is out of town for the weekend, so guess what that means… It means I get to be totally hedonistic—and do whatever I want and no one will distract me with their questions, like “Hey, are you hungry, should we go get lunch?” or “Have you seen this awesome clip of a corgi jumping into a lake in slow mo?” Just me and AtS and other fannish Internetting things for a whole 2 days. Well, that and I’m gonna have to paint the base boards in the living room—-BUT! I can put Angel on while I paint. I am a deluxe multi-tasker!

But first, before I throw myself headlong into my weekend of hedonism and isolation, I have to share with you the Spuffy revelation that was just… uh… revealed to me. I was reading some older entries in molly_may ’s journal today while I was at work (and should have been working--not so much a multi-tasker at the office). And a few months ago she posted this most excellent poll with bonus picspams!

( Click for Visual Aids and Epiphanies  )